The Relationship Struggle....

    It all started on May 8, 2012. I thought i had found the guy of my dreams. He was 15 and a freshman at the time and i was 17 and a Junior. He had a crush on me for the longest time but i didnt notice him at first. I later started to notice him and talk to him more and i started to like him. It felt sort of weird because he was so young, but i didnt let that stop me. We were alike in so many ways that it seemed to good to be true. He had the prettiest eyes, and the smoothest skin and he had braces. That was the most adorable thing i had ever seen. We started to talk on the phone and text all the time, he would walk me to class and make sure i was where i needed to be. A few months later, our feelings for eachother started to get stronger and stronger. Then one day, i took it upon myself to make it official between the both of us.
    We would always hang out and do all kinds of fun stuff together. We both valued eachothers time more than we both thought. The thing that had us both on the edge, was the fact that some of my friends didn't really seem to be happy for us. It started to weigh on our relationship at first but then we started to not care. It was us against the world!!! I felt so comfortable around him, i would sing and dance and just be crazy cause i knew he would enjoy it or join in on the craziness. Months later our relationship had been going good..so i thought! I later find out from one of his friends that he had cheated on me with one of his ex-girlfriends. Her name was Anastasia. I couldn't believe he had done that to me, because i thought we had a better relationship than that. I immediately confronted him about it and he had said that he wasn't gonna tell me but since i had already knew, he went ahead and told me what happened. He said him and his friends had got drunk and so did Anastasia and her friends. Thats when everything happened.
   After that had happened, i lost alot of the trust that i had for him and he knew it. We both worked through the situation and tried to get our relationship back to its highest peak. A few months later, our relationship seemed as if it was back to normal, we hung out, we always talked and cuddled in public like usual. Then i thought about it, he was doing MORE than usual. So, i sat back and watched everything. I had something in the back of my mind but i didn't wanna say it and be wrong. Then it finally came out...he had still been talking to Anastasia behind my back and didnt want me to find out. I was officially at my boiling point!! I had spazzed out sooo bad that i would black out everytime someone would talk about him or bring him up. The best part was that all 3 of us went to school together. She constantly came up in our relationship and i had had enough. On the day of October 30, 2012 i had got so overheated that i seen Anastasia and went up and hit her as hard as i could. We had it out that day. I felt bad afterwards, because fighting was not in my character. Luckily, after that, i hadn't heard about her anymore. Our relationship got bumpy after this last time. We were on and off all the time and always arguing.
   I had lost complete trust for him and could care less. We recently broke up again and i don't have any plans on getting back together. It was almost a whole year that we were together. He constantly calls me and messages me on facebook, but i dont seem to have any regret about the decision i made. I still have love for him but i am not in love with him. I deserve better because i am a good girl and i dont believe he is the one for me at all!! <3

The Value Of Friendship

For the past couple of weeks, my life has been put through hell thanks to a guy that i thought was my friend. The situations has been crazy. I have been lied on, bet on and mentally and emotionally abused by the students of my school. I depended on the people that call themselves my friends to be there for me, but i caught myself standing alone in the midst of my own sorrow. That made me realize that i don't have a lot a "real" friends as they would call it. I had never been put in a situation like this before to the point where i just wanted to go pure crazy. I do appreciate the people that were there for me and stood by my side, but for the ones who were supposed to be my friends...thanks for nothing. The major lesson that i pulled out of this experience is to sit back and learn the people you surround yourself with, because if you don't then you may have some failures in the end. So what i am basically saying to you all who may read this blog is to really appreciate the friends you have whether you have 1 friend or 100 friends, because you never know when you are going to need those special people.

Onika Tanya Maraj *A.K.A* Nicki Minaj

Nicki Minaj was born Onika Tanya Maraj on December 8, 1982, in Saint James, Trinidad and Tobago. Onika's parents were mixed with Indian and Afro-Trinidadian ancestry. At the age of just 5yrs old, Maraj and her parents moved to Queens Borough of New york City. Onika attended Elizabeth Blackwell Middle School, where she played the clarinet. She then moved on up, and attended LaGuardia High School. She loved to sing and act, so her knowing that LaGuardia HS specialized in music and the Visual Performing Arts, she decided to participate in the Drama Club. Onika wanted to sing for her school, but sadly, she lost her voice the day of her audition. Maraj had this weird way of expressing herself. She would come up with these alter egos, and live her life as a character to get away from all of the chaotic fighting at home. The first identity she came up with was named "Cookie". She then went on to Harajuku Barbie, and then Nicki Minaj, she was her favorite. There was this one particular one that stood out from all the rest: Roman Zolanski, was one that Onika claimed as her twin sister. Maraj said, that Roman was born inside of her out of rage, and becomes her when she gets angry. Onika was fufilled and destined to make her dreams come true. She started to live the reality, when discovered by Dewayne Micheal Carter Jr, also known as Lil Wayne. After being discovered she then signed with Young Money Entertainment. The first album including her was released on December 21, 2009, and that was titled "We Are Young Money". That's when Nicki Minaj was born and ready for the world.

 On August 31, 2009, Minaj had been released a 360 deal with the label in which she retains and owns all of her 360 rights – including merchandising, sponsorships, endorsements, touring and publishing. On November 19, 2010, Nicki Minaj's album Pink Friday was released to the public. She had lots of number one records. Nicki had a total of 7 number one records at one time. She was the first in years, to have that happen. Ever since her album had been released, Nicki has been off the charts successful, but she has also been giving back to her community as a part of her success. We all know that there is a lot to come from Nicki Minaj in the next few years, crazy and all. So just sit back, relax and wait to see what she does next.

High School Uniforms: Why is it Becoming a BIG ISSUE?

I currently attend MacArthur HS, in Illinois. It was recently decided on June 14, 2011, by the school board and superintendent, Gloria Davis that MacArthur and Eisenhower HS would have to wear uniforms. The uniform consists of khaki bottoms - long pants, knee-length shorts and for girls, skorts (optional)- and polo shirts, either short- or long-sleeve. Eisenhower High School students will choose from black, white or ash gray while MacArthur High School students will wear royal blue, white or gray. There is a major problem going on right now at MacArthur with our uniforms. There are girls coming to school with khaki daisy dukes on, and shirts that are not supposed to be worn. We have students coming in the school with neck ties, wrong color belts and other items that are not supposed to be worn. Some student and teachers are starting to believe that the uniforms will soon or already have become a race issue. Why? The main people that are coming to the school with the wrong clothing on, are the white girls.We have all kind of noticed that some white girls get away with wearing what ever they want, but the black students are the ones always having to change or get sent home.It is also an issue, because the faculty members that are cracking down on the uniforms, are pulling to many students out of class for ridiculous amounts of time and still expecting us to get good grades while missing class, because of our clothes. It has gotten to the point where some angry parents are starting to get involved, because of the amount of class their child(ren) are missing.There was a poster all over, with the regulations for the uniforms on it. The poster DID NOT say anything about: jewelry, neck ties, polo or bottom brands etc. These are the main things that the students at MHS are getting in trouble for.Soon or hopefully sooner, the uniform rivalry will soon get taken care of, because if not...things will get horribly out of hand, and things may happen that we all don't hope to see. The question that WILL get answered is: Why is it that the white girls get away with wearing anything, and the black students don't?