It all started on May 8, 2012. I thought i had found the guy of my dreams. He was 15 and a freshman at the time and i was 17 and a Junior. He had a crush on me for the longest time but i didnt notice him at first. I later started to notice him and talk to him more and i started to like him. It felt sort of weird because he was so young, but i didnt let that stop me. We were alike in so many ways that it seemed to good to be true. He had the prettiest eyes, and the smoothest skin and he had braces. That was the most adorable thing i had ever seen. We started to talk on the phone and text all the time, he would walk me to class and make sure i was where i needed to be. A few months later, our feelings for eachother started to get stronger and stronger. Then one day, i took it upon myself to make it official between the both of us.
We would always hang out and do all kinds of fun stuff together. We both valued eachothers time more than we both thought. The thing that had us both on the edge, was the fact that some of my friends didn't really seem to be happy for us. It started to weigh on our relationship at first but then we started to not care. It was us against the world!!! I felt so comfortable around him, i would sing and dance and just be crazy cause i knew he would enjoy it or join in on the craziness. Months later our relationship had been going good..so i thought! I later find out from one of his friends that he had cheated on me with one of his ex-girlfriends. Her name was Anastasia. I couldn't believe he had done that to me, because i thought we had a better relationship than that. I immediately confronted him about it and he had said that he wasn't gonna tell me but since i had already knew, he went ahead and told me what happened. He said him and his friends had got drunk and so did Anastasia and her friends. Thats when everything happened.
After that had happened, i lost alot of the trust that i had for him and he knew it. We both worked through the situation and tried to get our relationship back to its highest peak. A few months later, our relationship seemed as if it was back to normal, we hung out, we always talked and cuddled in public like usual. Then i thought about it, he was doing MORE than usual. So, i sat back and watched everything. I had something in the back of my mind but i didn't wanna say it and be wrong. Then it finally came out...he had still been talking to Anastasia behind my back and didnt want me to find out. I was officially at my boiling point!! I had spazzed out sooo bad that i would black out everytime someone would talk about him or bring him up. The best part was that all 3 of us went to school together. She constantly came up in our relationship and i had had enough. On the day of October 30, 2012 i had got so overheated that i seen Anastasia and went up and hit her as hard as i could. We had it out that day. I felt bad afterwards, because fighting was not in my character. Luckily, after that, i hadn't heard about her anymore. Our relationship got bumpy after this last time. We were on and off all the time and always arguing.
I had lost complete trust for him and could care less. We recently broke up again and i don't have any plans on getting back together. It was almost a whole year that we were together. He constantly calls me and messages me on facebook, but i dont seem to have any regret about the decision i made. I still have love for him but i am not in love with him. I deserve better because i am a good girl and i dont believe he is the one for me at all!! <3
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